after almost 1 year of abandon my blog.. i finally found time to jot down some words...

i have come to the end of my 2nd year in degree.. that means i still left 1 year to graduation.. hopefully everything will turn out as planned...

okie... thats all.. hahaha..

unattach

I love to be alone.. i mean.

I do really enjoy being alone.. not that i'm being emo..

But i just hate to be in a crowd..

It makes me uncomfortable..

Thats one thing that nobody knows bout me..

So please don't ask me.. y am i always alone..

Cuz I LOVE IT!!!!

Lesbian

Sometimes.. i juz get bored wif guys thing..

It crossed my mind.. "will things be better if im a lesbian"

I mean. its a common thing nowadays..

why not.. yeah.

WHY~ NOT~

Being a lesbian..

We can have girls talk all the time..

Dun have to deal with childish stuff that boy does..

N' borrow each other clothes...

oohhhhh~~~.. it sounds good... lol

i did ask a few of my friends.. "what if im turning into lesbian..."

n they say.. "impossible.."

hmmm..

yea.. maybe for now..

But honey~~ nothing is impossible~~...

XD

New semester

i've been neglecting this blog of mine for quite some time..

well.. cuz ntg much happen in my life..

even i myself.. sometimes get bored wif my life..

anyway.. a new sem has started.. hooray~~~

hopefully this wil b a great start..

i juz feel so relieve recently.. at last.. after 2 sems of struggling n studying under stress..

my hard work pay off..

well.. its not tat i get a perfect 4.0 gpa in my previous sem.. bt at least.. i manage to pull up my cgpa to 3. sumthing..

im satisfy wif it.. =)

taking up 7 subjects in this sem.. is not an easy thing to do..

gambate to myself.. n all my other frens who've taken up all those 7 subs as well..

hmmm..

hopefully GOD BLESS ME~~~ ...

XD

XD

world piss!!!!! XD

if only.....

if only..
i can pretend i don't know....
if only....
i can pretend i never saw it....
if only.....
i can act like nothing happen..
if only.......
i can be ok with it...
.....
........
...........
if only u never did that...
if only........

My Life would suck without YOU~

Guess this means you sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you

Maybe i was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe i was wrong for trying to pick a fight
I know i've got issues
But you pretty messed up too
Either way, i found out i'm nothing without you

Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life would suck without you

Being with you
Is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But i can't let you go
Oh yeah~~~

Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
......................

p/s My life would suck without you~~~

(a song dedicated to baybee)

Clueless Love

I just gave a love advice to someone..
n' i think i kinda did a nice job..
it sounded juz like this...
" u may miss ur ex more... but u love ur current gf more... ppl juz want things that they can't get.. n dun realize wad they need.. is already in the palm of their hands"

I actually told baybee d advice that i gave...
N' he juz laugh n ask "y did he ask u for advice"
........
....
I know im clumsy in my own love life.. =.=
but at least u still love me XD ..

p/s. u're just a clueless guy ... not a bad one...

Shopping spree and its not free...

Dropping by Times Square to shop this weekend..
Bought tons of stuff.. which mostly regret after buying them.. =.=

I got myself a number of clothes and a new bag.. for coming new sem.. "a great sem start with a new bag" my theory... stupid theory.. =.=

More than 5 hours walkin in my boots really is a BIG mistake..

Quote from momma "mayb u shud juz wear sandals".. ......... Good advice.. =.=

Anyway... is an awesome day out for my family.. as we got to spend time with each other... seeing that momma and papa kinda busy with the business this few days.. but its a gruesome day for my purse... as all its left is skin and empty inside.. =(

p/s. I love my family...

snapping AGAIN!!!

Nothing to Do

Nothing to Post

So..

Snap a Pic~~
Its a Black Day 4 Mad!!!

wuahaha~~

(sorry.. sleeping too much kinda damage my brain n sense of humor.. =.=)

p/s. i love you

this and everything else.....

Had a weird dream few nights before...
I juz cant remember wads the dream about... lol..
Well.. short term memory.. 24 hours most... XD.. just kid =.=

Anyway...
let's talk about break up.. shall we..
(some may go "urghhh.. who wana hear about her break up thing".. well just blahh then.. its my freaking blog~~~... i'll write wad i like.. XP )
n' sorry.. the upper part of this blog juz doesnt seem to relates wif this topic..
arrgh.. who cares..'

1st break up....
i remember it sounded sumthing like this

"OMG.. how am i going to survive this break up.. oh god.. im dying from this ultra torturing heart breaking... im just fifteen.. is this the end of my life??... oh god~~~ "

yea.. it sounds quite stupid.. but tats the reality... typical 1st time break up..
and wads worst...
some had been calling asking if the whole thing they heard about my break up is true...
oh yes.. god damn its true..
telling them " im so over him".. hang up.. telling myself "ok.. i nid new love~~~ "...lol
@.@ ....



2nd break up
He's my buddy n my problem listener...

I didn't actually have to go through those nose reddish moment with tears falling...
He's super nice..
lol..
thank u for still being by my side even for now
my awesome buddy...
n i love the the song album u gave me!!!



3rd break up
it ended this way
A "sumthing's wrong wif us"
B "oh yeah.. so.. shud we break up?"
A "yea.. mayb"
B "ok"

im B.. yea.. like to act cool.. and bla bla..~~
=.=
falling apart rite after the conversation..
sms'ing my friend.. saying "i think i juz break up.. n this time its for real.. huhuhu~"... =.=
can't stop myself from holding back the tears..
I did call my "problem listener".. n get scold after tat.. "stop crying for a guy like tat.. if u still like him.. call him back.. if not.. don't cry.. or i'll hang up".. well.. i hang up before he did.. all i nid is a shoulder to lean on.. not a smack on the face... bt i realize he's right..
Anyhow, i did the most stupid thing a girl can ever done.. asking A" shall i wait for u?"..
n he said " i think its impossible for us to be together anymore"
crap that.. y did i do tat... =.=
but thanks to those words..
it took me "only" a month or two to get over with it..
my friends.. yt n yx.. has always been by my side those moment.. thanks to them.. the pain seems to ease much..
n SPM is just a few weeks away.. bt i guess things turn out right.. cuz i started push away those sad thought by studying hard...
hehe.. he's one of the most gentleman i've ever met.. any girl will b lucky to b with him.. >.<
Its over for me now.. bt.. well i dont want to talk much about it.. =)



4th break up (not yet happen)
Well.. i just wish it wont happen..
Cuz ...i love u much.. XD




The End~~~~

p/s. i know i sounded pretty annoying in this post.. plz forgive if i've offended any of u... ^^ its juz about my break up experience.. ntg much

Moral Lecture.. oopps!!!

update!!!!
phew.. i was too frustated wif online world recently.. that i make a vow keeping myself away from msn n blogs for few months..
Its a record!!!
However.. sumthin happened that urge me to write it in this blog.. thou nobody seems to b likely drop by..
My moral lecturer.. lovely Miss Rani has containminated my innocent mind by accidentaly put on "pornographic video" during lecture class... LOL..
Im so dissapointed wif u... Miss... haha..
Anyway... i believe tat it wasnt ur fault as u mention about ur laptop was sent to service few days ago... still.... hmmm... the 3 sec "bj" shot has bcum a hot topic now.. lmao...
Ok.. better end this topic.. aarrghh.. a girl like me shudnt b expose to those kind of stuff yet... =.=


P.s: My baybee's birthday is juz around d corner.. i really dunno wad to buy as a present...

damn

damn... wads d hell wrong with u...

password....

the reason y i seems to abondoned this blog for months..
aint cuz im bz o wad.. its bcuz i forgot my password... =.=

An unfortunate but sweet event...

3rd, September 2009

7.00pm sumthing
i was arguing wif boyfriend..
well.. its a usual fight tat lead us 2 a few hours of break up...

8.00pm
He told me to wait him for 2 hours..
I was wondering what he was up 2..
I knew he is going 2 Ipoh ( as d onli thing tat wil took 2 hours is going 2 ipoh.. =.=)
But had no clue wad he went for..

9.45pm
I received a call from him..
bf : dear... my car rosak.. =.=
me: wad?!.. where r u now???..
bf: at d roadside heading back 2 kampar...
me: errrr... okay~~
Well.. funny him.. really make me worry.. thinking of him alone.. standing on d roadside
He told me not to worry.. as he try for a few minutes to start d engine again..

10.00pm
Ringing bf...
me: Can ur car start now?
bf: no.. =(

10.15pm
Ringing him again
me: stil cant?.. do u wan me 2 get help from friend?
bf: nvm..
=.=

10.30pm
Ring Ring~~
bf: tow truck is here.. n im coming home now..
=.=

11.15pm
bf: im reaching westlake ady..
me: ok ok..

Rushing downstair 2 wait for him..
Saw a tow truck stop in front of our house..
With him holding a bouquet of roses...
LOL..
The scene that night...
Funny.. n so sweet at the same time...
I was deeply falling in love with this boyfriend of mine again...


Fortunately, we're still belong to each other..
Unfortunately, the car repair cost him rm2000.. =.=

I Love Mun~~~~~
My baby dear...

photos will be uploaded soon

Mom's saying.....

Mom always tells me..
If you wan't to cry over a guy..
You can only cry for 3 days the most...
After that... Its time to wipe away your tears...
Cause it's not worth it....

Average Joe's life

Being an average girl... in everything..
Its not easy...
"owh... she's hmmm.... nothing special"
that's me..
yea.. it dun feels good...

Average brain...
Owez stuck in 2nd class.. =.=
If only im a super brainiac...
Study wud b hella fun..

Average look...
Short.. boring face..
If only im categorized as "zhen mei"..
I wud bcum a SuperStar... wakaka

Average in sports...
Join a lot of sport.. swimming, archery, running..
But d most.. can onli represent daerah..
If only im talented in one of it...
I'll now b practicing for 2012 olympic... ^^

Huh~~~..
Somehow...
I got...

Super Family..
A mom who calls me almost everyday..
Teling me she misses me..
A dad who likes 2 joke a lot..
days were bored without him
Sisters who have been my best buddies ever.. love them

Super Boyfriend..
The only person who can make me cry n laugh at the same time..
My angel n' devil...

Super Friend..
Who neglected hours.. talking n chatting wif me..
My problem solver.. =)


Guess my life arent as bad as I thought..
I may be normal..
But my life is GREAT...


The end.....

"Be-Lated" Present??

Heeeheeee..
Its a surprise tat i stil receive birthday presents though it is august now..
"Teapot" keep sayin he wana give me d present... but i tot he was juz kidding..
I mean.. if u ever see him serious or wad.. tat means he's havin fever or some uncure disease...
Then 2day.. he really did gave me this little cute pinky mickey MP3 player..
Which i crave 4 such a long time..
Lol.. thx so much looo

Thou i kinda not-into pink.. i stil love it.. lol

special gift from a far-away buddies...

This is not my present... obviously.. lol
Mun's new desktop..
I like it a lot..
So.. juz snap a pic..

.....

U always ask...
Why do i cry over such a small thing...
..
Guess u never realize..
How much this little thing 4 u..
Means a lot to me..

It's a CamWhore Day!!!

Feeling like taking a quick pic in my beloved washroom..

Love this washroom...

Since my class is on 8am,Monday.. So.. its pretty clear that im always the 1st person to enter this washroom on every Monday..

So.. whenever u walk in this block E, 1st floor washroom.. n u saw the lights are on..

Mostly im the who switch it on... cuz i'll owez b the 1st one to enter it for tat day..

Bad habit... "Must go washroom.. everytime juz reach class.."

Presentation... Woo lala~~~

snap snap!!!

Not enuff... stil wan 2 take sum more.. =)




Trying to act emo.. end up looking like a weirdo.. =.=