if only.....

if only..
i can pretend i don't know....
if only....
i can pretend i never saw it....
if only.....
i can act like nothing happen..
if only.......
i can be ok with it...
.....
........
...........
if only u never did that...
if only........

My Life would suck without YOU~

Guess this means you sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you

Maybe i was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe i was wrong for trying to pick a fight
I know i've got issues
But you pretty messed up too
Either way, i found out i'm nothing without you

Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life would suck without you

Being with you
Is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But i can't let you go
Oh yeah~~~

Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
......................

p/s My life would suck without you~~~

(a song dedicated to baybee)

Clueless Love

I just gave a love advice to someone..
n' i think i kinda did a nice job..
it sounded juz like this...
" u may miss ur ex more... but u love ur current gf more... ppl juz want things that they can't get.. n dun realize wad they need.. is already in the palm of their hands"

I actually told baybee d advice that i gave...
N' he juz laugh n ask "y did he ask u for advice"
........
....
I know im clumsy in my own love life.. =.=
but at least u still love me XD ..

p/s. u're just a clueless guy ... not a bad one...

Shopping spree and its not free...

Dropping by Times Square to shop this weekend..
Bought tons of stuff.. which mostly regret after buying them.. =.=

I got myself a number of clothes and a new bag.. for coming new sem.. "a great sem start with a new bag" my theory... stupid theory.. =.=

More than 5 hours walkin in my boots really is a BIG mistake..

Quote from momma "mayb u shud juz wear sandals".. ......... Good advice.. =.=

Anyway... is an awesome day out for my family.. as we got to spend time with each other... seeing that momma and papa kinda busy with the business this few days.. but its a gruesome day for my purse... as all its left is skin and empty inside.. =(

p/s. I love my family...

snapping AGAIN!!!

Nothing to Do

Nothing to Post

So..

Snap a Pic~~
Its a Black Day 4 Mad!!!

wuahaha~~

(sorry.. sleeping too much kinda damage my brain n sense of humor.. =.=)

p/s. i love you

this and everything else.....

Had a weird dream few nights before...
I juz cant remember wads the dream about... lol..
Well.. short term memory.. 24 hours most... XD.. just kid =.=

Anyway...
let's talk about break up.. shall we..
(some may go "urghhh.. who wana hear about her break up thing".. well just blahh then.. its my freaking blog~~~... i'll write wad i like.. XP )
n' sorry.. the upper part of this blog juz doesnt seem to relates wif this topic..
arrgh.. who cares..'

1st break up....
i remember it sounded sumthing like this

"OMG.. how am i going to survive this break up.. oh god.. im dying from this ultra torturing heart breaking... im just fifteen.. is this the end of my life??... oh god~~~ "

yea.. it sounds quite stupid.. but tats the reality... typical 1st time break up..
and wads worst...
some had been calling asking if the whole thing they heard about my break up is true...
oh yes.. god damn its true..
telling them " im so over him".. hang up.. telling myself "ok.. i nid new love~~~ "...lol
@.@ ....



2nd break up
He's my buddy n my problem listener...

I didn't actually have to go through those nose reddish moment with tears falling...
He's super nice..
lol..
thank u for still being by my side even for now
my awesome buddy...
n i love the the song album u gave me!!!



3rd break up
it ended this way
A "sumthing's wrong wif us"
B "oh yeah.. so.. shud we break up?"
A "yea.. mayb"
B "ok"

im B.. yea.. like to act cool.. and bla bla..~~
=.=
falling apart rite after the conversation..
sms'ing my friend.. saying "i think i juz break up.. n this time its for real.. huhuhu~"... =.=
can't stop myself from holding back the tears..
I did call my "problem listener".. n get scold after tat.. "stop crying for a guy like tat.. if u still like him.. call him back.. if not.. don't cry.. or i'll hang up".. well.. i hang up before he did.. all i nid is a shoulder to lean on.. not a smack on the face... bt i realize he's right..
Anyhow, i did the most stupid thing a girl can ever done.. asking A" shall i wait for u?"..
n he said " i think its impossible for us to be together anymore"
crap that.. y did i do tat... =.=
but thanks to those words..
it took me "only" a month or two to get over with it..
my friends.. yt n yx.. has always been by my side those moment.. thanks to them.. the pain seems to ease much..
n SPM is just a few weeks away.. bt i guess things turn out right.. cuz i started push away those sad thought by studying hard...
hehe.. he's one of the most gentleman i've ever met.. any girl will b lucky to b with him.. >.<
Its over for me now.. bt.. well i dont want to talk much about it.. =)



4th break up (not yet happen)
Well.. i just wish it wont happen..
Cuz ...i love u much.. XD




The End~~~~

p/s. i know i sounded pretty annoying in this post.. plz forgive if i've offended any of u... ^^ its juz about my break up experience.. ntg much