this and everything else.....

Had a weird dream few nights before...
I juz cant remember wads the dream about... lol..
Well.. short term memory.. 24 hours most... XD.. just kid =.=

Anyway...
let's talk about break up.. shall we..
(some may go "urghhh.. who wana hear about her break up thing".. well just blahh then.. its my freaking blog~~~... i'll write wad i like.. XP )
n' sorry.. the upper part of this blog juz doesnt seem to relates wif this topic..
arrgh.. who cares..'

1st break up....
i remember it sounded sumthing like this

"OMG.. how am i going to survive this break up.. oh god.. im dying from this ultra torturing heart breaking... im just fifteen.. is this the end of my life??... oh god~~~ "

yea.. it sounds quite stupid.. but tats the reality... typical 1st time break up..
and wads worst...
some had been calling asking if the whole thing they heard about my break up is true...
oh yes.. god damn its true..
telling them " im so over him".. hang up.. telling myself "ok.. i nid new love~~~ "...lol
@.@ ....



2nd break up
He's my buddy n my problem listener...

I didn't actually have to go through those nose reddish moment with tears falling...
He's super nice..
lol..
thank u for still being by my side even for now
my awesome buddy...
n i love the the song album u gave me!!!



3rd break up
it ended this way
A "sumthing's wrong wif us"
B "oh yeah.. so.. shud we break up?"
A "yea.. mayb"
B "ok"

im B.. yea.. like to act cool.. and bla bla..~~
=.=
falling apart rite after the conversation..
sms'ing my friend.. saying "i think i juz break up.. n this time its for real.. huhuhu~"... =.=
can't stop myself from holding back the tears..
I did call my "problem listener".. n get scold after tat.. "stop crying for a guy like tat.. if u still like him.. call him back.. if not.. don't cry.. or i'll hang up".. well.. i hang up before he did.. all i nid is a shoulder to lean on.. not a smack on the face... bt i realize he's right..
Anyhow, i did the most stupid thing a girl can ever done.. asking A" shall i wait for u?"..
n he said " i think its impossible for us to be together anymore"
crap that.. y did i do tat... =.=
but thanks to those words..
it took me "only" a month or two to get over with it..
my friends.. yt n yx.. has always been by my side those moment.. thanks to them.. the pain seems to ease much..
n SPM is just a few weeks away.. bt i guess things turn out right.. cuz i started push away those sad thought by studying hard...
hehe.. he's one of the most gentleman i've ever met.. any girl will b lucky to b with him.. >.<
Its over for me now.. bt.. well i dont want to talk much about it.. =)



4th break up (not yet happen)
Well.. i just wish it wont happen..
Cuz ...i love u much.. XD




The End~~~~

p/s. i know i sounded pretty annoying in this post.. plz forgive if i've offended any of u... ^^ its juz about my break up experience.. ntg much